school's been quite fun.
but its never gonna be as havoc as 4/15 i think.
hai~
my class pple... ok la.
i dont want to bitch, but there's been disagreements...
and the bonding is very superficial.
i realise i dont trust them, and they dont really trust me.
so ya.
its different la...
like shuuy and xinhui and ella and val i can really speak my mind la.
i can bitch (oops) and talk crap with them and they KNOW me, kind of?
and these pple... im still struggling to bond with them.
and wad im really scared of is that id become a totally different person after 2 years that you dont know and i dont want that to happen.
i AM influenced by my surroundings... so ya im scared in a way.

sigh.
sometimes i dont even know wad to say anymore.
seriously.
i feel lost/confused/uncertain/pissed off/upset/bitchy/mean/crazy in the course of one day la.
its like this whole rush of emotions throwing me off balance.
well i hope i get to know jason better, cos so far he's been a good listener?
despite being a senior.
and well, basically a good fren la.
i dont dare to say what i truly think of pple yet, even to him la.
if i am sure i can trust, then maybe i will.
so far its only val that id speak my mind to.
i hope i have close frens in class. i think jingren's not bad. he's my buddy in our buddy system.
thoh in my mind he looks damn like han yang cos i havent seen him for sooooo long.
haah. then... there's zuohou and naga. joo xiang too joker liao la.
then... pple tell me i cant trust janice.
then i think mingxiu's fine la. and uh... kaiying.
who else? i dunno. yayan i dont mind. but she and clara and huifen always stick together la...

ya then like dat lor.
i suddenly dowan to say anything le.
oh paul likes jan alot.
hurhur. everyone likes her cos she's so sweet and cute, and she plays it to her advantage la...
from wad ive heard from many.
so ya. pls someone help me do smthg before i lose wads left of me that i know.